t is dark.It is grotesque.It will creep upon you and watch how you die.How you cry and fall to your knees..How you bleed to death.How you initiate to abominate yourself.You lose yourself and you don’t know where.
“Where am I?….What am I doing?..I suck!…I shouldn’t live..” Innumerable terrifying thoughts even worse than these begins to glide across your mind..worse than a chasing phantom they are.
As it begins to poison you it watches how you choose the wrong decisions,like you only want to self harm and see no other option other than that.When hurting and attacking yourself becomes the only shimmering light and your guardian angel…..*THE WRONG THOUGHTS*……*THE NASTY THOUGHTS*..It relaxes in a corner and watches how you pass away.
This is pain.This is agony.This is wild misery and torment.It ruins you!Your life!
Maybe it is a kind of tornado??But not the one you see in front of your eyes with a dangerous smile…but the one which you can only feel.A silent killer…’A SILENT PAIN IS ALWAYS WORSE THAN A LOUD ONE’.
SOME BROKEN HEART MAY NEVER MEND
SOME MEMORIES MAY NEVER END
SOME WHITE LIES MAY NEVER FADE
SOME PAIN MAY NEVER GET ERASED
SOME WET TEARS MAY NEVER DRY
BUT MY LOVE FOR YOU WILL NEVER DIE
OK GUYS I THINK YOU MUST KNOW THAT I AM OBSESSED ABOUT CATS AS MUCH AS I AM ABOUT LIONS AND RABBITS!!!! ❤ ❤ ❤ :* :*
I FOUND THESE PICTURES REALLY CUTE!!OH GOD I CAN’T EXPRESS HOW ADORABLE THEY LOOK AND HOW MUCH I AM IN LOVE WITH THEM !!!
YOU ARE GOING TO DIE AS WELL!! :p
and a thousand more!!!!!!!i wish i could !!!! and I have a cat story to tell as well about my experience but I guess that’s going to be the topic of another post…till then stay cool and keep reading! 🙂
I love imagining things. Yup the cheerful things that let me or give me a reason to carry a smile on my face.Those enchanting moments?me and you?or those great big dreams in another place?
If reality can’t bring me all that why should I wait?Why can’t I just imagine and be happy.Why can’t I just picture my self soaked in happiness and joy and charm?
Let it be and let me do it how I want.Reality is so dull and dark.Not a pinch of happiness that I crave for but the unexpected ones.It does not satisfy my needs to be honest!How long should I wait for this to take place or even that?I give up!I don’t believe in patience and hope!I just cant! you can call me patient less and an animal if you want but I swear I give up…..If situations won’t let me believe then why should I?
I know and I get it that I must work hard and achieve it.Try my level best to make my dreams come true.Not just sit there and dream……
I know it will never happen because it shouldn’t! It just shouldn’t.,,,,,,,,and so I will forever keep dreaming with grief but yet be happy because at least it does happen somewhere….
Being here without you is like I’m waking up to
Only half a blue sky
Kinda there but not quite
I’m walking around with just one shoe
I’m half a heart without you
I’m half a man at best,
With half an arrow in my chest
I miss everything we do,
I’m half a heart without you…
Yup i just felt excatly the same way like HALF A HEART for you Zayn..I completely and so damn badly miss your presence in the band and all those cuteness that you guys used to grow together i miss them very much ❤ ❤ :(…More over your voice!i just miss you like i really do and any other fan of yours would!
You are so different now…… 😦