A death.

Plumes of dense white smoke where billowing out of her nostrils as well as her mouth as she idly smokes a crushed cigarette.

A partially crashed ,nasty champagne bottle crawls across the dark garage.

She raises her lighter as she finds her way through the junk,behind her a thousand smeared graffiti blows up.

Her dark smudged eyes scanning the place,looking for any indications of others.

She gives one last look inside and drags the garage door down.

She rubbed the bench of her jet black Indian bike drowsily until she was on the verge of breaking down.That reminded her of a tattoo she wouldn’t want to see ..a key locking a heart and two letters.Rolling her eyes , she pulled her sleeves to conceal it.

She hopped onto her bike and sped up the hills into the darkness of midnight.

She rode like she didn’t care because all that she cared about was long gone.

In the middle of a lonely,cold night a drunk girl stops at  a heart thudding peak of a hill and stares down at the ignorant world.

What do these people know?

Nothing she thought……

If there was anything they cared about..materialism,wealth..that’s all they know.

Do they know what is feelings? ..life? pain?..

Oh! they think we have no life because we loiter around and lie behind garages.

We are misfits.Dirty misfits.

She exploded into tears in front of the thousand city lights.

Every drop rolled down her scarred pale cheeks mirroring the images of the golden city.

She gasped.

Swallowing her pain for the last time.

She sighed.

Then breath for the last time…

And slept…

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2…

1….

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Corrupted

Don’t you feel like slamming all the doors and locking yourself in your room at times.

How else to handle that screwed life.

Just pull out the bed sheets and bang all your stuffs against the wall until all you have is fine dust that satisfies you.

Scream like a savage creature and release deep sobs in the dark.

Doesn’t that feel like the only living escape at times.

Shatter the window pane and see the fresh,crimson texture on your arms and legs.

What an insane relief!

Every dark and heavy tear that rolls down the cheek carrying the remainder of smudged eyeliner steals away some of the ghastly pain that the heart would just stumble and fall if it holds on to it any longer.

As I say,”I am slowly giving up”.

 

Rewind.

What do you have to say now that I let you go?

Watch me shatter in ache and sorrow.. ?

I left you all alone my soul.

I left you solo.

Don’t curse me anymore.

I can’t withstand all that dolor.

I beg you with my all I own.

Forgive me for betraying you.

For you are what I look up to.

My eyes glistening with tears everyday single second

Just for you.

If only I could stop the tape and rewind

I vow to never repeat this mistake.

A huge repentance.

My life completely altered

into an era of regrets.

I am a murderer you see.

I executed the person inside me.

What have I done?

Somebody save me!!

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Lots of love

xx

We make it.We demolish it.

Hey my beautiful cupcakes!! *waves*

How are you guys?I hope very thing is flying really awesome but then if it is not really awesome it should be ok at least.

I hope none of you are reading my post with the smile missing on your face because there is one thing that I want you all to remember like forever. “Always read my posts with a smile”.GET THAT!!

I just don’t like the emotion sad and all that.I know we have all come across moments when we feel terrible and some times you are sick of it but dear I understand because I face it like every single day.I also believe that every day and every second can not be excessively charming.Sometimes we have to face storms and war and with all that we got to turn strong.It is all that makes our life.Just make sure you don’t break down and lose hope.

DON’T YOU DARE HATE YOUR SELF FOR ANY FILTHY REASON.

This life of ours is only temporary.Do not let the every day misery steal your glowing smile.It is what carries your beauty,pride,bravery and every other stunning quality that you posses.

You are amazing the way you are.You are beautiful and strong.

Don’t let any one control you unless it is the one who made you.No one has the rights to judge you other than the one who created you.

You are who you are.And more over you are perfect the way you are.

The success one gets by faking or putting on a mask is only temporary.Don’t bother about those people.

See your self…

And don’t you dare forget what I have said..

I AM ALWAYS NEXT TO YOU WHEN YOU NEED ME.I LOVE TO HELP AND BE THE CAUSE TO SOME ONES HAPPINESS.ASK AND SHARE ANYTHING YOU DESIRE… ❤ 🙂

All the love and all the care

Shaima .A.R

TC

XX

AGONY..

t is dark.It is grotesque.It will creep upon you and watch how you die.How you cry and fall to your knees..How you bleed to death.How you initiate to abominate yourself.You lose yourself and you don’t know where.

“Where am I?….What am I doing?..I suck!…I shouldn’t live..”            Innumerable terrifying thoughts even worse than these begins to glide across your mind..worse than a chasing phantom they are.

As it begins to poison you it watches how you choose the wrong decisions,like you only want to self harm and see no other option other than that.When hurting and attacking yourself becomes the only shimmering light and your guardian angel…..*THE WRONG THOUGHTS*……*THE NASTY THOUGHTS*..It relaxes in a corner and watches how you pass away.

This is pain.This is agony.This is wild misery and torment.It ruins you!Your life!

Maybe it is a kind of tornado??But not the one you see in front of your eyes with a dangerous smile…but the one which you can only feel.A silent killer…’A SILENT PAIN IS ALWAYS WORSE THAN A LOUD ONE’.